Thursday, December 10, 2009

Love, actually.


I never want to become one of those girls who fills up their about me with their lover's name as if their whole life is just about one person.
I don't want a relationship where you get into arguments about who loves who more and how they both couldn't possibly survive without the other.
I don't want a lover who smothers me every second of my life, someone who says that we'll be together forever and that they never want to loose me.
I don't want a dozen of perfect red roses and a box of chocolates to show that you care.
To be honest I want to feel real love.
The kind where we don't even have to say I love you, because we just know that we both do.
I want a relationship where we fight all the time about things that matter to both of us, because we are both comfortable enough to say what we really think.
I want someone who realises that when I say nothing is wrong; I really mean everything is wrong.
Someone who realises sometimes I just need my space, but that it doesn't mean I don't care for them any less.
I want a relationship where I'm perfectly comfortable wearing no make up and dressed only in his old tshirts.
The kind of relationship where when I say I want a coffee with 2 sugars, they just know I mean three.
A relationship where when he says "She's just a friend", I trust him completely and can comfortably let them hang out. Knowing no matter what, that they'd never betray me.
Someone who knows what I'm thinking, just from the careless amount of time we've spent together.
A person who will just stay the night with me and just sleep and cuddle, and not care if we make it to the sexual stuff.
I want someone who doesn't pretend to enjoy the French moves I like to watch early in the morning, but who will watch them with me anyway, knowing that the next day I'll support them in their love for whatever I couldn't care any less about.
A person who will let me play Nirvana and Brand New and every other band I like in their car, even if they've never heard of them.
I want a person who will tell me honestly when I'm being selfish, or conceited. Someone who isn't scared to tell me when I'm over reacting, and what they really feel about me because they know whatever they say, I wouldn't leave.
I want someone who knows that I have guy friends who I am close with, but they don't feel the need to compete for my attention because they know they have it, no matter what.
Recently I've come to the conclusion that love isn't endless jealousy, and being over protective. It isn't 50 page meaningless poems, or early morning text messages.
Above all, love is just about two people, living their separate lives together.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Amity Affliction



Saw one of my favourite bands. Made it to the front row, and into their promotional shots. Even if I look like a dick :)